n so the boards have started...

for all of my friends who are wondering why after slogging for 4 years to earn a degree..i am writing about the board exams...well i still have a brother to think about!

he's in 12th...and today appeared for chemistry...i will start at the beginning...
so there were the usual relatives and friends calling in and pouring out well meaning but essentially useless advice...
"attempt all the questions beta"(hey that's the first line of 'instructions' given in my question paper!don't tell me u memorized that), "leave lots of space"(yeah...like their isn't already so much space inside my head right now), do not panic!(look whose talking!), time your answers and write in the order of the question paper(excuse me..i was timing my revision till YOUR call came)...and so on and so forth...till poor bro locked himself in his room and refused to take calls...n ordered us to tell any one who calls that he's gone out..(WHAT?gone out?one day before the boards?what will happen to him now??)

anyway...he finally went off to sleep at 10...to wake up at 3...and if you think that's bizarre..then sample this..
when we reached the examination center..we met another uncle who had come to drop off his daughter...and he said..."oh i normally make my daughter go to sleep everyday by 2-3 o'clock...but yesterday even i didn't say anything..so she hasn't slept at all last night..what to do..."

so he woke up at three...and revised and re-revised for 4 more hours...which probably felt like the hours before death can take him away...then he took a shower and changed into his uniform...with a GREEN t-shirt underneath...because his "shani" or saturn is playing games and preventing 'optimum reaping ' of benefits out of so much hard work...he is also carrying a GREEN rucksack...and because only blue ink can be used to write the boards...he is using a GREEN colored pen with a blue refill inside....talk about attention to detail..

dad HAD to reach office early...so he could not take bro to the center...which resulting in the duty being given to me and mum...dad asked mum if he should arrange for a taxi...mum said we'll make it on our own...no need to call a taxicab for "such a small thing"....ah!wrong thing to say mom...another argument ensues about "the importance of boards v\s why create all this brouhaha"...

finally we reached the center..and immediately thought we'd come to the wrong place...it looked like a set for filming something!
we had reached an hour earlier...and all we could find were videocameras and reporters...then the students started arriving...and the reporters started hounding the already harassed and weary looking students and equally dismal and strung-up parents for sound bytes...

then the icing on the cake...this pretty looking girl...all decked up...comes up to the students amidst all the people giving out pamphlets of mock question papers...she had a folder full of pamphlets of her own..of...guess what...the application form for a steward\airhostess job for a prominent airline company!talk about irony!why would a person appearing for his\her chemistry exam even consider doing THAT...especially 3o minutes before the action was about to begin!people really have so much sensitivity...

my brother finally went inside the gate with all the school teachers standing in line to give out the all-important blessings and wishes..and as i am writing...he would have been half way through...how is the paper going?what if he's blanked out and is staring into space wondering how to fill up the pages?do i sound like i care?
come home bro...we'll go out for an ice-cream...relax...and prepare for the next one...because life is but a vicious circle...and how you choose to lead it, is everyone's business..
so i think that instead of all the talk about us becoming unfeeling as humans...havent we become extra empathic and full of concern?

to the ones who matter the most

everyday that i have been with you..its been such an adventure..

filled with teeny-tiny ups and downs...

unending...unmarred joys....

inescapable...heart-wrenching regrets...

i owe you a part of my life...my destiny...my spirit...
you helped shape me...mold me into who i have become...
& for that...i couldn't thank you enough....

i hope you look out for me too...the way i look out for you...
i know you have...at different points in time...but i wish expressions of love and care were not so hard to come by...

because every time we fight...i know the emotion is real...but will you assure me that anytime besides that...you will all but love me so..?are you held captive by me..or are you captivated by me....that is what i often wonder....

i do not know where i am headed...my way ahead is foggy..
yet why do i sense so clearly..that YOU will rise higher?

my clarity becomes you...you are destined for great achievements...
let my aspirations and expectations for you never crumble...

you and i have reached a place...where there is nowhere left to go..
we are done altering our pace...adjusting our backpacks..choosing our path...
we finally know...for sure...that we are in this together...

no destination to reach...no direction to follow...
i just hope to god that we never turn back...

i love you for who you are...but more for what you make me...

you bring out the best in me...& for that...i cherish you more than anything else...

my first meaningless post

really...do you have to be absolutely..brutally honest when you are writing an autobiography??OK....kidding....of course u you do...but then i can twist things n exaggerate a little right?i will take your silence for a yes...

you know...i wish mine was a great story to tell...like ONE OF THE GREATEST STORIES YOU HAVE EVER HEARD...but alas!nothing like it...mine isnt even a loser-to-heroine..rags-to-riches kind of story...its probably an ironic one...great!!now i have a category!lol...


i'd love to not start at the beginning...but then i think i'll be kind and not bamboozle the already befuddled little out there.....so...i guess it has been well and truly established that i'm a girl...not a female...not a woman...not a teen...maybe a nymph...o.K. definitely a nymph..*chuckle

i am normally abnormal...a tad off the beaten track...i would like to believe that i am a radical...a revolutionary...but sadly i am more talk and hardly any action...
i believe everything and everyone is hypocritical...and therefore i survive by forgiving them for their ignorance.......hmm...do i sound cocky and too full of myself?oh well this is MY blog after all...

so there...guess that's it for now...this is gonna be my first post...wasn't it a complete waste of time..?well u cant say i didnt warn ya...lol....look out for more...if ur not already nauseated...my sincere apologies to those who are...